Hole in my soul

My two week break officially ends today.Tomorrow,everything starts again.The hectic schedule,the homeworks,the tests and all the crazy painful things I could ever experience,starts TOMORROW.sigh.

When I go back to college tomorrow,the 2nd semester begins and so will all pain.Not to mention,I have got to settle some eca things.I will be on a temporary break from all events for my parents are very unhappy with my performace academically.I'm really sorry for letting you down mummy and daddy. :( I promise I'll be working much harder for the 2nd semester and my AS exam.So,before I can be free from all the eca,I have to settle what ever work that has left and I don't think it'll be easy.I have got the pre-med and Leader's stuff to settle.I can feel myself slowly dying already,knowing I'm in deeep s***.Thanks to the people out there who made things even more difficult for me.You know who you are.

On a more positive note,I managed to do many things during my 2 weeks break. (: Ahhh...Happy things.I went out with Nad Maf,Lisz on friday nights.Lisz is such a good driver to all of us. :P I manage to meet up with YL and Zen too.My favourite of all,ps2 afternoons almost all week.I absolutely love those moments.I also manage to watch Monsters vs Aliens,Night at The Museum 2 and Transformers 2.I can now cancel that off my to-do list ;) The process of getting Transformers tickets was exciting,and I must say,totally worth it!To come to think of it,it is our very first night movie.chehh..haha.On those days I was at home,I spent it reading books I never got the chance to that was waiting for me on the shelf.All in all,it was a pretty nice holiday.I must say,I quite enjoy it though it wasn't as long as I wish for it to be.I am really happy I got to spend time with friends that I miss dearly and also him. (:

I'm happy for the 2 weeks break.However,I'm not quite sure if the holidays did me any good.I've definitely gone rusty about all the things I learned for the past 4 months.Going back tomorrow to face all of it again will most defiinitely require some warm up tonight!I've gone rather insomniac a bit,and I have to get over it soon.I checked my time table for semester 2,all the lecturers are different from semester 1 except for Physics and Math.sigh.I'm going to miss Ms.A I tell you.I do hope semester 2 will be a better one and perhaps,things will improve.I want it to.As the brand new semester commences,I will have a new list of things to do.On a better note,I can now have lunch every with G6 friends every friday.Hear that?E-v-e-r-y Friday!Woohoo!Plus,I still get to have lunch with him twice a week.Super thankful for that!And,um...that's pretty much the bright side of things.Haha.I'm praying it'll be an awesome 2nd semester.

I'm just not so psyched for college,not yet at least.I feel like an utter failure with the many things I need to sort out. :( The state I'm in right now makes me an utter failure,or at least makes me feel like one.Thus,the post title.

Till something blog worthy,

Goodbye...