Rough week

This is hard.Sometimes,I wonder if  my heart can take it anymore.Sometimes,it feels worn out.
But,I'm fighting.Still,fighting for this.
I made a promise.And I don't intend on breaking it.
I don't believe that promises are meant to be broken.
God,please help me through.I don't know what else I could do.

For a little while..

I'm a terrible blogger,isn't it?When I started afresh for this blog,I promised that I would blog more especially when I start the brand new life here.But then,who knew this new life would be sucking up all of my time and energy?


Okay,I know,I kind of owe this place a post on food and random stuff about here.But...Guess what?
I have finals for my first semester in approximately less than 2 weeks!So,you'll just have to wait.longer.
Heh.Not like you've not waited before?And not like this place hasn't been dead before :P So,just be a little more patient,and I promise I would come up with something good when the hectic days are on hold. :)


GUESS WHO IS COMING TO TOWN THIS CHRISTMAS?!?!
Next wednesday evening,I would be expecting a VERY special person,it's the best Christmas present ever!Christmas means so much more when you're away from home and loved ones.True story.
I am excited that I'll be spending Christmas eve with this much-loved person!And also another guest,will be joining both of us.I'm nervous.


On a random note,it has only been three months,and so much have changed.So much happened.And trust me,SO MUCH,is a lot.The good and the bad,despite of it all,I am glad to announce that I am truly blessed and happy.Thank You,God..For being so good to me,despite all of my mistakes and misconducts.


Here's an ugly photo of me to keep you entertained while I'm gone :D

Much love! <3

Away

Take me home where the sky meets the ocean,

where the hues of blue fill my eyes,

and endless shores make my mind wander to places I've never been.

Where my heart runs free,but my spirit is still...

And,Life begins.. :)

Hello again!As promised,I am back to fill you in :D

It's almost hard to believe that I have been living in Indonesia for two months already and stepping into the third month here.Life has definitely changed for me and definitely a change that I am still trying to adapt to.

To those who may not know yet,I am currently living on campus at the medical students' hostel.Basically,there are 4 buildings.2 for girls,1 for boys and 1 for twining students of UKM which are Malaysians only.Laundry,internet and electricity is free except for extra electrical items such as hairdryer,kettle,fan etc.Water is provided but with a minimal cost.Where I live,Jatinangor,they're big on water dispensers.So,those refillable water containers that goes along with the dispenser are very common.I do not know where the water comes from or how clean it is,I just pray that God bless the water.really.So,about the room,it's twin sharing with a bathroom,cupboard,study table and plenty of drawers and shelves.However,the other unit which is the other girls' hostel don't have drawers and shelves.

The weather in Bandung is cooling ranging from 20 degrees to 33 degrees on really hot afternoons.But it's always cold in the evening and night.always.The monsoon has started so it has been raining everyday,thankfully not all day.The roads here are mostly dirt roads if not tarred.So your feet gets really eeky if it was wet.One thing is,I do kinda enjoy the weather here.Despite the afternoons being hot when it's not the rainy season,it is windy.I love the wind.Also,there's a huge volcanic mountain behind my uni,so I guess all that green helps.HOWEVER,the people here do not know how to appreciate the air and constantly do open burning everyday.The country is too poor to provide proper garbage disposal system or facility,that everything you throw away here,ends up in ashes.sad.

The main mode of transportation here is by foot.Wait,maybe that's for me.Most common mode of public transportation here would be the angkot and ojeck.Angkot is basically a small van that will pass through most roads and stop at almost anywhere.But if you need to travel further in a housing area,then that's what an ojeck is for.Ojeck is basically a motorcycle service.A guy will take you wherever you need to,however far in it may be,on a motorcycle,for a price of course.The cost of taking an ojeck is negotiable but the angkot is pretty standard.The rule is: Never ask how much.The moment you open your mouth to ask,they know you're not local or familiar and would most probably try to take advantage of you.Thankfully,I have not had that experience despite asking the price during my first time.


Most of the people here are friendly and helpful.If you ask for any information,they will tell you if they knew but would be honest if they didn't know.(for me at least) Language is still quite a barrier as I am able to understand basic and perhaps a bit more of Indonesian but unable to speak fluently yet.Not to forget,I have to learn Sundanese as most people in Bandung speak Sundanese and will help me during my clinical years.


The education system here is different,way different compared to ours.Here,right after high school,if you get the grades,you can apply right away into university.For medicine and dentistry,there's always an entrance exam for every university,and if you pass it,you meet the other requirements,you're a university student!So,from what I just told you,you should be able to guess that most of the students here,especially my medical batch mates,are around 16-18 years old.And damn.I feel old.But they're really,really,childish in a lot of ways.So,I keep reminding myself that they're still young and try to keep my fury down.

So,what have I been up to lately?I have discovered the joy of taking long walks or jogs around the campus during the early mornings.I would love to try it out during the night but the problem is that the streets here aren't lighted up so it's scary and dangerous.I recently visited the morning market nearby the campus too.It was the longest morning market I have ever been too throughout all my travels.Seriously.I bought a big pillow and an iPhone cover.haha.Which cost me less than RM20 in total.Yes,so I have decided to take the cheaper road now but I think it was a bargain ;)

As I type this,I am actually down with a combination of flu and vomiting and diarrhea.I have no idea what's the diagnosis.But I suspect it's common cold due to lack of rest and food poisoning.Thank God the nauseous feeling has subsided today.I spent all day in bed yesterday cause I could not do anything,even move without wanting to throw up.I slept so much too :D

Next post,all about food!Or more like,the food I eat :D and perhaps some other random stuff.


Stay tuned! ;) 

Pull me through!

Greetings from the capital of West Java!Where there are volcanic mountains,cold breeze and a girl trying her best to survive first year of medical school. :) 


It has been awhile now.Not planning on this update,but since I refuse to sleep or study (which I know I will regret in the morning), I thought I just fill this space with some happenings.


Firstly,I did NOT realise that one month has passed!Time really flies where I'm at.Or,cause of what my life is right now.I can't imagine what it will be like when I start working.My every weekend here since I arrived have been occupied.My weekdays are filled with events to attend or work.Only lately I found time to start studying.Mid Sem exam is in two weeks and I think I'm kind of behind time.sigh.I pray that I will finish everything on time and that everything will stick!I find it difficult to prepare for this exam because I really don't know what to expect.The exam format is sort of fixed but every doctor want different details in the exam.AHHH!STRESS!


I know I promised that I will blog more about Bandung or Indonesia or life here.But,I guess we all got to wait for another two weeks before I can fulfill my promise.I WILL update this place once I'm done with Mid Sem.PROMISE! :) And trust me,you will be pleased ;) 


Other than that,I am really grateful and thankful to God that I passed my TOEFL exam that was compulsory for everyone despite having IELTS and whatnot.I did not study or practice questions at all for this exam as Daddy arrived from Malaysia the night before.Before I slept that night,half-asleep,I was checking through the format of the exam and then decided I would study in the bus the next day.But that didn't happen either cause I slept through the whole journey.So,Thank You Father!


I am also VERY grateful and thankful for the people that God has blessed me with since I arrived.I have to admit that I found a new family here at Indonesia and hope that this family will continue to be blessed with love,joy and peace. :) Also,there's someone in particular that makes me very happy.And I hope things stay the best it can cause we're going to spend five years here.If something goes wrong,that's beyond repair,I'll be broken to lose a great person.I don't want history repeating itself.I want friendships that will last a lifetime.
And,Love that will last a lifetime too.
I thank God,for everything.It makes more sense now :) 
I'm enjoying this and pray that I will overcome what ever that comes my way.

It's just the beginning...

First Taste

Hello.Once again!I know I've been MIA for awhile now.So,here's what I have been up to.


Currently in a new country,so plenty of adapting to do.There's just so much.So much going on.
Since arriving,I felt that time passes so fast that it is difficult for me to recollect my thoughts and be overly homesick.But I do miss home.I miss the people most of all of course!Just that I don't really find myself crying or dwelling on the fact that I DO miss my family and friends SO SO SO much.


I was just dreading over the fact that Monday has come but it's already Wednesday now.And that my first mid semester exam is in a month's time.OH THE HORROR.I have not even fully grasp the format of the exam.Everyone seems to be doing it according to what works for them and that makes it difficult to know what is right and what is not.By everyone,I meant the seniors and each tutor's method varies.sickening.In a sick and twisted way,things work systematically unsystematic here.wait,what?


Enough of that.


I must say I have been truly blessed to have found myself some pretty awesome friends.Though it has only been a few weeks,I know I am surrounded by great and loving people.I met most of them back in Malaysia.Being here,helps us to see who is worth keeping as friends,and most of all as family.I must say,this is my new family here and I thank God for it. :) Also,I have been attending church!I'm very happy to have been able to go to church every sunday so far.The church I am currently attending is in Bandung City but transport is provided and we are accompanied by Malaysian seniors who are absolutely kind and nice.Though not an English church,it is most of the time bilingual and that is good enough for me.A fully Indonesian-conducted church is much more difficult and awkward,trust me.
I am also happy to report that there is a CF in the medical faculty or uni.Two,in fact.One is with the Indonesian students and another created by the Malaysians,for the Malaysians.I have attended both and both are equally fun and fulfilling.


I am sad to report that my English is getting from bad to worse.I hope by reading all the medical textbooks,my English will improve or at least,survive.There's so much to read and study.For one session of lecture,there are about 70-100 slides.Each lecture is 3 hours long and I have a full day of lectures every Tuesday and one on Mondays.


It's almost a month now,since I arrived.Oh Father,help me through!October is going to be more stressful and full of surprises.I'm sure. :)


That's all for now. <3 

First post from Indonesia.


Hi!I wake up early every morning.5 am is NORMAL here.ugh.


Bye!Stay tuned!It'll be juicy,I promise! ;)


Ps: I'm loving the new blogger interface/layout/whateveryoucallit

See you on the other side :)

My last post from my bedroom.I've got approximately 3 hours plus to sleep.Let's hope I make it!


Thank you to my lovely family for making this transition in my life as easy as possible.
Thank you to my wonderful friends that had filled my last days at home with loads of laughter and food.
Most of all,Thank You,God for blessing with this opportunity in my life!


See you on the other side people! <3

Outside my window...

There are three incidents that happened.Or,happens frequently.However,do take note,that the third incident only happened once.Thank God!


Incident 1
So for those who know me enough,would know that I live in a government apartment.My family was blessed to have the ground floor unit as there are no elevators.Having said that,there are many cons to that advantage.One of the most significant would be that the bunch of contract foreign workers that clean the area happen to find sitting outside my window,where our so called garden is,very comfortable.There are 10 blocks in the compound but I do not know or understand why of all places,outside my window happens to be the most appealing to rest.Resting would be fine with me actually.But,what I can't stand is that they can't bloody shut their pipeholes.You see,they speak with extremely high-pitch voices like cats sound when being run over.RIGHT OUTSIDE MY WINDOW,BESIDE MY BED.I did consider putting up a silent-zone sign on my window but realised they might not be able to read.Even if it was in Indonesian.Yeah,call me a bitch,I don't care.Come live with me for one day on a weekday,then you'll understand the point I'm trying to make here.


Incident 2
Before my trip to NZ last year,I was in my room a lot.And on one night,I heard a knock on my window.My natural reaction would be to see who's there.*Knock knock**Who's there?* and guess what? *NO ONE!* Well,of course I didn't ask who's there but when I checked,there wasn't anyone there.At first,I thought it would have been a family member cause they always do that to me knowing that I'll be in my room,and giving me the heads up that they're on their way to the front door.But when I realised that no one came to the house,I sensed some hanky panky going on.But I told myself,I was probably just imagining things.
A few days after,the same thing happened.First knock,I ignored thinking I was hearing things.Second knock,I yelled for my mother to check it out.But when my mum checked,no one was there.Then,it happened again.My mother instinctively took a piece of wood from the kitchen and went out the front door to check it out.No one.
This incident repeated a couple of times and everytime it happened,I won't bother going to the window.In fact,it made me very angry knowing someone was literally harassing me.One night,daddy was home when it happened.Father and mother went out with torchlight,wood and a metal rod (I THINK).Apparently saw some boy on his way taking out the trash but he claimed it wasn't him.Also,there were a group of unknown guys around.I don't know who else father and mother spoke to or complained to,but ever since that incident,no more knocking!I guess the wood and metal rod did really show that perv who's THE BAUSS!And,most definitely,who NOT to mess with!MUAHAHA!


Incident 3
Last year,can't exactly remember which month,there was an accident.Or more like negligence.There was a family living 3 floors above me,and their 11 month-old son crawled out their opened bedroom window and...as you might have guessed,fell out and landed right outside my bedroom window.It was in the news apparently.On tv and in the newspaper.The parents kinda realised that he was missing only after awhile.When they realised he was missing and probably looked out the window,realised their son was in the drain outside my window.However,there was no blood at all.Sadly,the baby was pronounced dead upon arrival at the hospital.I won't get into the details of how I found out,but let's just say I knew something was wrong before the parents knew.Problem is,the window seal is quite high above my bed,so I can't see what's in the drain.When the father came down to take him,I was wondering why the heck is there a baby outside my window?Children usually play outside my window but I knew the baby was way to small to play by himself.And,it was too early to play.Like 7 in the morning.This is a very sad  story,but true.


Now,I'm wondering...Is my window cursed?And no,there are no sightings or hauntings of any entities.

There there!

Hello there,to anyone that still drops by hoping for an update of my life!Not that it's interesting or anything,but I know you're probably nosy. :p


Life is good.Or at least I try to think of it that way.Have been stuffing myself with food,constantly.Thus,gaining weight steadily!I usually think twice or more before indulging in anything fattening for the past few months but since the beginning of this month...I think life is too short for that.No more second thoughts,anything I feel like eating,I EAT!As I type this out,I can feel my stomach are in folds as I sit here.Plenty of spare tyres!I must say,I'm blessed to have friends taking me around and eating with me whatever my stomach desired. :D I don't want to get fat alone! :P Sharing is caring.


As for packing,nothing is packed yet.But quite confident I got all I need.I better do a stock check this week just in case!The thought of packing scares me.My father had already issued a warning not to bring/wear any "inappropriate" clothing there.I should try asking him what exactly would be deemed "inappropriate" but I don't want to start world war 3,so I'm gonna zip it.Now,I'm really starting to feel that my days here in Malaysia is numbered.With only two weeks left to meet up with people and to run errands,suddenly schedule seems tight.Not to mention,lazy days are part of my schedule.I do hope that the whole uni process will go smoothly.Visa,NOC etc 


Also,I'm trying to wear all my clothes out before I leave.Cause I'm certain there are some,if not many,that would make me be really  out of place if worn in Indo.This is a challenge for me because I THINK I'm a creature of habit and would like to wear the same clothes I always do.So,if you happen to see photos of me,or when you see me outside,please consider the way I dress as fancy instead of overdressed.But,of course,I don't plan to wear my cocktail dresses when catching a movie or drinking teh tarik at Murni.If you do see that happen,I probably have a VERY good reason for it or maybe gone crazy.


I'm going to miss this weekend very much I think.Two girlfriends came for a sleepover on Friday and we spent almost the whole Friday and Saturday together.We had chocolate fondue with fruits etc for supper on Friday night.We were up early on Saturday to run my errands.Thank God for them cause I wouldn't have been able to do my errands without them.You see,father had to reach the office by 8.30 am latest.I had a dental appointment,to drop-off documents at the agency and buy medication from the skin clinic.I got to use the car for the whole day!But I had to pick father up after work and he's so impatient!Mother wanted to sleep in,so she didn't follow me.Thus,making my point that it was a blessing in disguise that I had two friends with me.Friend A and I took turns to drive as some of the places I had to go was impossible to get a parking.The plan for the day had some hiccups but all went well in the end.So relieved!


I plan to bake this coming week and I hope the plan works out!I have been wanting to bake and try something different and finally got the chance to!Will blog about it of it turns out well,promise! :) 
I have been watching season 1 to 4 of The Big Bang Theory.Oh Dr. Sheldon Cooper makes me want to strangle him but I find him and the humour very entertaining.But I do feel that people who studied science would relate to the show better than people who didn't.


Now,now...Why am I so anxious about leaving?I'll obviously be coming back from time to time.Not like I'm at the other side of the world.I still want to see some people before I go cause the next time I come back,I probably won't get to see them again.Even if I do,some things won't be the same anymore...