Sunday, August 11, 2013

Birthdays,special days vs every day

Hi.That's my 22nd birthday cake and birthday present from my boyfriend,N.
I am grateful and happy for the cake cause I didn't really have anything else at the time and also the fact that the fondant melted overnight.Thus,ugly photo of cake.But trust me,it was pretty when I first saw it and that it tasted fantastic!
I suppose there isn't anything special about birthdays.It's no big deal.I guess I was just too comfortable when it came to my birthdays being celebrated by loved ones.For me,I will always try to make birthdays and certain particular circumstances special for my loved ones.For some of you,you might say,we should celebrate our loved ones everyday and not only once or twice a year.I cannot agree more on that thought.However,it's nice to go big on that one special day.Why not take the extra mile to make that already celebrated person,even more celebrated or special?If you love them,I'm sure this is acceptable to you.So yes,to me,birthdays are meaningful and are meant to be special.I just wish that everyone can see this too.

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

H for Hugo

Hello hello! I have not been here since forever but recently had the feeling of coming back here.So,here I am!

No reason in particular of why I'd suddenly decided to update after a long time.Life has been..good.Plenty of downs but there are ups as well.Currently in my second year of med school and I've already completed half of the second year already.Got another 4 months till I'm on term break and I'm looking forward to that!I just pray and hope that all goes well like the first half of my second year.Right now,I'm in the midst of my midterms exam for the second half of this year.Next round of exams would be finals,somewhere in June or end of May.The university is never consistent except when it comes to being inconsistent.True story.

I'm pretty excited for my papers to finish actually.The boy and I got some plans and we're really looking forward to it.

Since I can't (or maybe not the time yet) tell you much about the future of my life/upcoming plans,I'll just fill you in about what you probably might or might not know already.
I had a beagle sometime back in June.His name is Hugo and my boyfriend got it for us and me,partly as the second part of my belated birthday gift.It was rather unplanned but coincidence or not,we took Hugo home with us exactly one month after my 21st birthday.This was a huge deal for me because it's a whole other level of commitment.Mind you,I had never taken care of a dog single-handedly especially cleaning after it and so much more.Btw,his birth name was Hanz,but I decided on Hugo as I wanted a more "human" name and less Dutch.In Indonesia,Hanz,Helga etc are all common Dutch names.
Also,I have to admit,I like that kid in the movie Hugo about trains and life.The movie that many said was boring but I found it so appealing and warm.

So anyways,Hugo,really changed my life in so many ways.I personally think that I changed in some ways because of him.He is also the reason why my boyfriend got our second dog,a siberian husky,Chester.Sadly,Hugo is no longer around with us and he would be turning 1 on the 7th of April.I miss him,everyday and especially before I sleep each night cause he used to come snuggle with me conquering as much space as he can.

I could never look at another dog,especially a beagle without EVER seeing his face appear in my mind.
I don't know how this turned out to be a post about my beloved dog.It was just supposed to be one of my random updates..but I guess this is one of the many reasons why I'd stopped blogging for awhile.That I'm still grieving and wish that I could have done so much more to save his life.

Despite everything that has happened throughout the past couple of months,I just want to thank God for all He has done and provided.I know that it could have been worse.

On another note,I should be studying for tomorrow's paper but I have read all the reading materials and still feel a bit clueless.The more I read about statistics,the more I feel like painting my nails or read more famous Asian bloggers sites.

Off I go now!till the next update!

Saturday, December 29, 2012

Time and moments that pass

This is not exactly the best post to commemorate my last days of 2012..But,in the first place,there is nothing to commemorate.There is nothing to remember.
A date is just another day filled with hours,minutes and seconds.

A day is filled with time and moments,nothing else.Moments that pass,won't come back.Moments that pass,will be lost.
Sadly,I am running out of time.Not in a dying way,even though,some parts of me wish it was.I am running out of time to study what I must before my finals starts on the 7th.To whom that is reading this,please do pray for me,that I will pass this exam and not doomed to suffer.

This week has been eventful.Celebrated Christmas with my family and shall do another post just on that after I get the photos from my dad.

On the other hand,I must emphasize that time waits for no man,and by that,I am heartbroken that I did not get to say goodbye to Hugo,my puppy beagle son.
If I was there just a few minutes earlier,I would have had the chance to let him sleep in my arms,instead of in a cage.This is one thing,that I would and could,NEVER forget.
I told time,"It was too soon,how could you?!" But time said,"I do as I wish,as no man,has control over me".

Oh..such is life..and perhaps,death..

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Female bad habits?

The top 10 worst female health habits-by Yahoo lifestyleUK.

Apparently,these are the few of many bad habits of women.Are you as guilty as I am? Just a fun read for all the ladies out there,and guys!Do take note!I think you can help your ladies in some ways or another! :D

1.Wearing heels

More and more of us are opting to wear heels on a daily basis, and this could be bad news for our health. High heels affect our posture, put pressure on joints, and can lead to a range of conditions including arthritishammer toesback pain and tendon injuries – and that’s before you take into account any heel-related accidents! To minimise damage, limit your heels to 1.5 inches for daily wear, and wear insoles to help reduce the pressure on joints.

2.Carrying a heavy handbag

With the rising number of gadgets and accessories the majority of women haul around, many of us are carrying around several pounds of weight on our shoulders every day. As a result, lots of us are also putting our long term health at risk. While you may not feel the effects right now, lugging around a heavy handbag can lead to serious back problems and neck pain as well as poor posture. Don’t wait until the damage is done – do your health a favour and try clearing out all non-essential items and switching to a smaller bag.

3.Sleeping in makeup

Most of us have succumbed to the temptation to sleep in our post-party makeup at some point. However, leaving makeup on overnight – along with the dirt and oil that naturally accumulates on skin throughout the day – is a quick route to clogged pores, congested skin and spots. Sleeping with mascara and eye makeup on can also affect your health by causing eye irritationbloodshot eyesor even infection.

4.Matching men drink for drink

From networking drinks to first dates and social events, there are many instances when women may feel compelled to keep up with the drinking habits of the opposite sex. However, women not only tend to weigh less than men but they have less body water to dilute the alcohol, which means they tend to get more drunk more quickly. To minimise the risks of alcohol on your health, try to keep within the recommended guidelines for alcohol consumption and alternate alcohol with soft drinks.

5.Wearing the wrong bra size

It is thought that more than 70 per cent of women are wearing the wrong bra size. However, wearing a badly fitted bra can not only affect the look of your clothes, but research suggests it can cause a range of health problems including back, neck and breast pain, breathing difficulties, poor posture, skin irritation, circulation problems and even irritable bowel syndrome. Rather than guessing your size, make sure you get measured to ensure you are getting the support you need.

6.Worrying and harbouring regrets

Stress is damaging to both our physical and mental health, and women are twice as likely as men to suffer from stress-related disorders, as well as having higher rates of depression and anxiety. While it is thought there may be biological reasons for this, worrying about the future and dwelling on regrets can also add to our problems, with research suggesting that women are more than twice as likely as men to harbour regrets over lost loves and broken relationships.

7.Obsessing over appearance

While both genders suffer from body insecurity, many women tend to overly obsess over their idea of the “perfect” body. Research findings published in the journal Obstetrics & Gynecology found that 16 per cent of the normal or underweight women studied believed themselves to be overweight, while a study commissioned by Dove found that 90 per of women wanted to change at least one aspect of their appearance. Body insecurity not only affects our mental health, but it can also lead to physical damage caused by extreme diets, yo-yo dieting, eating disorders and cosmetic surgery.

8.Emotional eating

While comfort eating affects both genders, research has suggested that men are more likely to reinforce positive emotions with food, while women comfort eat when they’re sad. Women are also more likely to satisfy their cravings with sweet, high-calorie foods. Rather than letting your waistline suffer next time you’re feeling blue, try distracting yourself from cravings by doing something you enjoy, or boost your endorphins and health with an uplifting workout.

9.Not getting enough sleep

Not only can lack of sleep make us look and feel at our worst, but insufficient shut-eye can also lead toincreased accidents, calorie consumption and heart disease risk. Unluckily for women, statistics suggest that sleep problems affect more women than men, while a study by the University of Michigan found that women are more than twice as likely to give up sleep to care for others. Unfortunately, sleep has been found to affect women’s blood pressure and mood more than men’s, making it imperative that you do your best to get a good night’s sleep.

10.Putting themselves last

Not only are women more likely to compromise their sleeping habits to care for children and others, they are also prone to putting their own wants and needs at the bottom of a hectic to-do list of chores and obligations. To avoid running yourself into the ground, learn to sometimes say no to those requests and commitments that are less than essential, and make sure you set aside some “me” time each week to do something enjoyable just for you.
I'm going to be honest here,I'm guilty of number 1,2,6,7,8 and 9.
What bothers me the most is..I don't understand how women could actually be wearing the wrong bra size?!As for the matching men drink for drink,I know my tolerance,if I drink too much,I get sleepy and not a fan of getting drunk;throwing up etc.Too disgusted to sleep in my own make-up.And as for the last one,I don't think I'm that selfless yet..But I'm trying to be.
I've got plenty to work on,what about you? :)

Saturday, August 25, 2012


I am home!For my term break,and got about another three weeks before I start again.
So,I know that I've not updated this blog for a long time and will do so,right now.This moment.

First thing's first,I turned 21 in May!I'm very thankful that I got to be home for a couple of days before my 21st,so that's when I'd celebrated with family and friends.And during that visit home,I finally got my braces off,I'm not longer metal mouth :D When I was back in Bandung,the beloved boy did a surprise barbeque party with a group of close friends.Everyone,everything,right under the night sky scattered by stars.By the end of the night,I was drenched in all things possibly found at the party;coke,other fizzy drinks,beer and chocolate cake.Good thing I didn't get the curry gravy that the boys were playing with.The people managed to get me tipsy,but I was still sober enough to remember every detail of the night and I went to bed happy and just so grateful.Mummy was part of the party too as the boyfriend skyped with her on his phone to show her the surprise and cake-cutting part.Even though I wish that my parents were with me,but I did get to celebrate earlier with them back home.

When I was home prior to my birthday,I had another celebration with my friends in Malaysia.SA and Z helped to plan out everything for me as being away was already difficult enough to get things done.So,I just wanna say a big THANK YOU TO SA and Z FOR PLANNING EVERYTHING,and TO THE REST OF YOU WHO CAME FOR DINNER.You know who you are ;)

And MOST of all,

The day I was flying back to Indonesia,I received a very special package,from a person very far away that I love very much!-The one and only,LZ!My bestfriend :)

Truly blessed :)

Much love,

Love life,love your life ;)

Thursday, July 12, 2012

It started with a whisper

Never thought I'd live to see the dayWhen everybody's word got in the way

Friday, February 10, 2012

My first Christmas in Indonesia

To be honest,I'd never quite imagined Christmas to be quite big here in Indo.Surprisingly,every shop I step into,I would hear Christmas carols and not to mention,see decorations everywhere.It did make me miss Christmas back at home very much even though it was most of the time simple celebrations with family and friends.It brought back memories of last year's Christmas(2010) where I'd spent in NZ with my god parents,god brother,mum and aunt.I remember being very homesick a couple of weeks before Christmas.But I kept telling myself to hang on cause I know,I'm blessed to have my mother around for a few days during Christmas week.

My wonderful friends and boyfriend had decided to pick my mum up from the airport instead of me hiring a driver to pick both me from the hostel and mum from the airport.Mind you,we had a day full of classes that day.This is why I love my friends.They come up with the best ideas and make my days even brighter.So we rented an APV,and left for the airport after we'd freshen up after class.Arrived at the airport on time only to find out the flight was delayed.So we went to look for dinner,and came to the airport again.It was one of the best nights ever.I remember being very extremely happy. :)

After the airport,we made our way to the hotel and mum invited everyone in to have some roti canai she had brought for everyone.Mum was helping me unpack all of MY stuff she had brought and chatting with the rest.Then there was an awkward moment.But I shan't elaborate. ;) It was rather late when everyone left for Jatinangor,felt bad that I'd kept them till late night.

The next day,and a couple of days after that,all I did was brought mum around town for shopping.Then only on Christmas eve,I brought her back to my hostel and showed her the university area etc.Remember I had blogged about there was going to be a special Christmas eve dinner?Well,it happened.I took mum and the boyfriend for dinner at Kampung Daun.Google it up!It's a nice place that serves mostly local cuisine.Food is not that bad and plenty of variety.Too bad it was raining quite heavily and we left eventually in the rain.

I was kind of sad that mum had to fly back on Christmas Day itself.What was I going to do for the rest of the day in hostel? :( I guess it isn't fair to my dad to be spending another Christmas alone.Sent mum off at the airport,came back with a terrible stomach ache.It wasn't the dinner the night before cause I'm the only one who had it.I was not staying in my room for a few days now.When I went back to my room,I realised that there's something quite different about it.And when I looked again,I saw this :) It was such a sweet and pleasant surprise!And definitely a Christmas I would never forget.My friends had secretly been making Christmas cards and decorating my room like elves!I'm also proud to say that all of them who were part of this are Muslims.Now,who said Muslims can't be friends with Christians or vice versa?
I thank God for such wonderful blessings in my life :)
Truly blessed!

Ps: We were official as well on Christmas ;)

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

My One,and Only one.

Though officially it has been a month,I feel like I've known you since forever,and that each day of forever,seems to be the best day ever.

You complement me.You bring out the best in me.
You keep me going.
You are truly,the best.
You are,my only,my only one.
I love you Nicholas.Always.

"How can I love when I'm afraid to fall,
But watching you stand alone,
All of my doubt suddenly goes away."
I have died everyday waiting for you.

Monday, January 16, 2012

6 days!

Until I'm HOME!

Even though I'll only be back for a week,I know very well it is better than nothing at all.Can't wait to be in the embrace of my parents and friends.Can't wait for the smell of my home when I open the door.Can't wait for the taste of food that I could NEVER get here.Can't wait.
There was a time,or many times,that I had wish to be anywhere but home.
But right now,where I want to be is,at home.
Don't get me wrong.This place I'm currently living at does feel like home with the amazing people that make my each day.I have been truly blessed.
Yes,I know I have said it many times,but I will not cease to say it again and again,that I am blessed.To be here,to study what I have always dreamed of,to be with people that love me,that I am happy and grateful,content,with all that I have received and receiving.
But there's just no place,no place at all,like home.
For me,home is where my loved ones are.So,currently,I have three homes.
Malaysia,New Zealand and Indonesia.
Malaysia,I'm coming home!
New Zealand,I hope I'll be able to visit this year.I miss you so much that I dream about being there..
Indonesia,you'll always have a place in my heart.

Going to pull off an all nighter!Last week of exams,fighting on.

Wait for me.