disappointed

I've said what I had to,

now it's up to you.

I hope you're not the same,

cause they never changed,

and had always made me feel this way.

They never changed,

they only knew to talk.

Just like you,they're disappointed,

But just like you,so am I.

I'd been disappointed all this while.

Did you know?

Perhaps not.Cause they don't.

Perhaps,just maybe,

you're just like them.

I hope I'm wrong.

enough.

Sick of your mentalities.

Yes,go ahead.Tell each other.

Cause you know what?

I DON'T CARE.

where?

Where did all the friends go?

Where is everything and everyone?

Where is that place I once used to love?

Everything is the same,yet everything has changed.

eff friends.eff bff.eff everything.

eff all the things I used to believe in.

I'm just stuck here,and everyone is there.

I'm sad,that's all.

This week has been hectic.First week classes right after finals.Also,Lan classes starts this week for unfortunate march intakers like me.2pm-5pm.Daily!For two weeks!Torture or what?

CAL students had their class photos taken this week on Tuesday.Today was the lecturers and the editorial board's turn.It was really really really tiring yesterday.I was on my feet from 8a.m till 12 something.My job was to arrange the students for their class photos.Boy oh boy...There were really odd combinations.Like,three girls and maybe twenty boys.We had a few cases like that.And,then,there are the really huge classes.With lots of lecturers.Honestly,I thought doing this in college would be easier compared to school days.But,I stand corrected.College photo sessions are waayyyyyyyy harder to handle,the arrangement of students I meant.My prayers were answered and everything went quite smoothly.No drama.No me shouting.No enemies.(I hope!) But,I was in an awfully bad mood at the end of the day.

Today,was lecturers photo session and ed board.I had to be the arranger,again!Thought I didn't have to.It's way scarier and harder to deal with lecturers than students alright.Ed board was a little easier and Jane was helping me out.And,of course,Ms.Fiona our teacher advisor.For yesterday's session,Mr.Selva was our(my!) lifesaver. :D

I wore my red brand new nyonya kebaya yesterday cause mummy said it would like nice in photographs.(I kinda agree with her).Today,we had to wear working attire(formal) for the ed board.So,yes,dress up is fun but so inconvenient I tell you.Plus,I needed make up on cause my skin is breaking out like crazy.AWFUL I TELL YOU.sigh.

I would love to post up photos on what I wore but I didn't take any.HAHA.

I just remembered that I have a Lan Test tomorrow to study for .damnit.

Suddenly,I feel like I've lost you.again.

what now?

Exams are FINALLY OVER!

 :D Celebrate?I don't know.Results would be out in January which isn't too far away.I'm already nervous.

Yes.I am.BUT,that won't stop me from having all the fun I can get for NOW! :D

Excuse all the :D coming ahead.Don't say I didn't warn you.It's excitement.Yes,I think that is what it's called.

Anyways,my last paper was on Friday.We ended at 10.While everyone had how-I'm-going-to-spend my-last-day-of-exam plan in their heads days before,mine was simply and probably,the worst.Well,it isn't all THAT bad,my plan was just to leave for home right after the paper.BUT,some people decided to save me from my extremely pathetic life but getting me to go for lunch together.Su ann took me for lunch.She had to even fetch me from college.Rachel,Su ann and I had lunch together at ss19.And,it's been too long since I met up with Ray.Food took really long but that gave us the extra time to talktalktalk.Su ann,the kind driver friend that she is,sent me home.Went home,took a short nap and then mum woke me cause dad was back.Got ready and left for dad's company function.

It was raining heavily on our way there.Dad's car skidded and we crashed into the divider.It's all good,no one got hurt,just my mother shocked to the bone.The car will be in the workshop for about four days.Food was really good that night.On the way home,called Zen to asked if she was at home and how she was coming over for a sleepover.She and the girls(Su Ann,Ray and Yenn Ling) were out having dinner.She later then called me to ask to go for a drink after their dinner and who else but Su Ann picked me up after their dinner.When you put all the five of us in a car,the noise would be more than enough to generate energy for the car itself.Better than petrol and solar. :D We ended up at Ray's church for about half an hour or so before we left for ss19 to chat and drink.YL and Su Ann ordered the standard mamak drinks and I had ABC.It was dead sweet but it was quite yummy!After that,we left for Zen's place to get her stuff and then Su Ann dropped us off back at my place.It was definitely a night to remember as it's been so long since I've got to really spend time with them.I love and miss them terribly!


When I reached home,I was quite freaked out when I saw my aunts in.To protect Zen from those monsters,we briefly said our hellos and took cover quickly in my room.We talked,talked,talked,talked and talked.We washed up and did our nails.And,oh!I must thank Zen for being so ever patient with my nails. :D She helped me clean each nail on every finger.I also spilled my nail polish and both of us had to clean the mess.Done with the nails,I suggested we indulged in cupcakes.Went to bed around 3 plus,slept at 4 plus.I almost doze off as soon as I stopped talking.


Woke up three times before finally waking up at around 1 something.Had lunch,Zen went home.Went church that night.And,I was on the pc the whole night or shall I say morning?I was watching My Sister's Keeper and half of Made of Honour.I don't usually cry for movies or books.(seriously!) But,My Sister's Keeper was different for me.I teared,only at ONE scene.and,I'm not telling you which one it was.Overall,I find it quite a sad movie.Really.However,I think the book has a nicer twist to the story than the movie.(as usual)


Slept at 7.A.M.That night.Or,morning?Woke up at 11 A.M.Thanks to dad.sigh.Was out the whole day till 7 something,washed up and slept till Monday morning.I had college kay.Dead tired!


Anyways,the GIFT LIST IS UP.At the right side of the blog.I'll cancel it off if you tell me you're buying it for me. :D


GTG peeps.Will update soon bout college this week.It has been very exciting! ;P

say hello to goodbye

:D

TADAAAA!

Yeap.Short now cause my brain short circuited.

:P

PS:hope you like it!;P

This is it

Due to popular demand,I'm back here to blog.I honestly wanted to just let it die,since it has been dead for quite some time already.Here I am again,throwing at you my endless ramblings.Pardon me.


Here I go.


Okay,I was supposed to update last night but I was too sleepy,I just had to sleep.
With reference to the title of this post,I'm guessing you would know what it's about.If you thought it's MJ's latest documentary that is showing in our cinemas for only two weeks,YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY RIGHT!
CONGRATULATIONS,YOU WIN...NOTHING!


I went to watch it last Sunday with mum and dad at ioi mall.The GSC there is a nightmare I tell you!I'm never going back there again!EVER!Lining up to buy popcorn is a pain due to some really stupid Chinese people who just doesn't know how to que up.Mum says uneducated is a nicer word.So,yeah,VERY UNEDUCATED people.And,there's the other kind.The ones who think they owned the mall but they are just a bunch of rowdy and wannabes.


Thankfully,MJ didn't disappoint me!THIS IS IT is definitely a must-watch!I had never been like a crazy fan of him but I grew up with Thriller and his other songs.My godparents are huge fans of him and whenever I went over to stay with them,we would watch his videos like almost every night!I honestly did not expect to enjoy the movie that much but hey!It's Michael Jackson!He doesn't disappoint you.He really puts his heart and soul into his work and I feel that is what makes him such a great entertainer through the decades.He still has his moves and his voice.He still has it all to make it big.It's really sad that he couldn't make it for his London show.Anyone who watched THIS IS IT,would know that his final come-back would have been phenomenal!
So,please go watch it!It was totally worth my 9 bucks.Even if you're not a MJ fan,his jaw dropping moves will not fail to amuse you.And,oh...his female guitarist,is amazing!Not only hot,but plays pretty well too!


Anyway,I was checking my settings for this blog last night and guess what?!I just only found out that blogger has a new editor thingy.I was using the old one all along.haha.Seriously,I'm super left behind in the cyber world that I feel so old now.damnit.


A little bit more of update before I go,
Mummy and I went to ToysRus on Monday,she bought a 500 bucks Transformers toy for my god brother.I don't remember getting such an expensive toy when I was 11!
I think I totally screwed up my Math and Chem paper on Thursday.The exams are really draining the life out of me.I pray that I will stop screwing up my upcoming papers and be able to look back and say that I have no regrets.I don't want to make the same mistake. :/


I knock my head against something the other day and it hurt like hell!Now,I'm suffering from a headache.Prolly from the incident.


That's all for today!Toodles!

Happy 18th,En Quan!

CHUAH EN QUAN,

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY!

I'm sorry bout the icing on the cake.Haha.I guess I was rather nervous when I was holding the cake.But,I do hope you enjoyed that night with all of us. :) Thank your wonderful Mummy for being so kind to us!Letting you attend that night was more than enough for all of us but she just had too.

You prolly won't read this any time soon but that's alright.It must be difficult to feel happy to have your first exam paper the day right after your birthday. :P I just hope that you'll cheer up and enjoy your special day!May you be blessed with all the desires of your heart and be granted that birthday gift that I know you want so badly(5As!)!I am sure that Yeshua will guide you through this exam and through everything else in life

,like He always had!Remember that I keep you in my prayers every day.Know that you are never forgotten and never will be.Know that I love you very very very much!

Now that you're legal(and so am I),I know you'll get to do more naughty things and get away with it.BUT,I know you'll be good and stay away from trouble.Right? *winks* I know these is all really cliche,but all of these came from the heart.I also want to thank you for being the great friend and person that you are to me.My bestest friend! :P

(Now,don't be jealous Zen!) I am truly happy and thankful that I got to spend another birthday with you,Mr. Chuah En Quan.Who knows,this time next year you might be off somewhere else to read law.I might still make you blow candles off the cake through web cam though! :P I'm just happy and grateful that I got you in my life.Thank you for putting up with me and mood swings,for scolding me so I would study and taking care of me.Most of all,thank you for loving me and...being the great best friend and boyfriend!

Never forget that.Never forget that I love you!

Ps: All of us(friends) would be here for you whenever you need someone. (:

Birthday boys

YIP ZHI HOE,

Happy Belated Sexy 17!

So young,yet so tall,how unfair?!Anyways,Hope you had a blast on your special day! ;) Wishing you all the best in all you do and may your driving license come fast! :D

IGNATIUS LIEW

Finally LEGAL!

Thank you for being a good friend and of course,how can I forget you? :D
Hope you had a blast today!Continue to rock what you got!Live life to the fullest! ;)

running thoughts

First week of college after the break is tiring.I don't know if it's the camp or what,my body is in great need of rest.I can feel it.I know it.KO-ed early for the past few days.Aching all over I tell you,even the heart!Thanks to some who just knows how to.Oh!pictures!Will upload them tomorrow night,hopefully? :D The workload is killing me I tell you.Literally. :(

I really wish sometimes I could just give it all up.Go somewhere new,start over.Like those witness protection programme.Crap.I think I've been watching too much CSI.But then again,if you had the opportunity to start over again,would you?For now,I would say yes cause I feel like I have nothing to lose.I don't feel like I'm leaving anything behind except the life I used to have and the person I used to be.I don't want all that anymore.For the people I leave behind,they don't need me.I'm certain.So,yeah,I can leave behind everything and start over.

Oh well,that was just some thought.Got Chem and Physics workshop tomorrow.Yay me.sigh.For the first time,Fridays seem to have lost its appeal.Prolly might have something fun to do after college,I hope.On a random note,I should probably learn to be more patient and maybe all these won't seem to feel like an eternity.

PS: I love you,superman.

(you'll know what I'm talking about)